The Reach
I am so insignificant. There is no reason for me to be here. God don't need me. He don't need anything from me. There is nothing I can do that could possibly impress him. My life has no meaning. I don't stand out. Opportunity don't knock on my door. I struggle through the tides of a desperate life searching for my reason. My reason for being. Why God put me here. In all this searching all I find are hollow, empty, unfilling ends.
So I looked up to God and I ask. Why did you put me here? Reveal to me my purpose so I can do it and just come home.
and He tells me...
Your purpose is the journey, and when you complete the journey- you will be home.
When I looked inside I found it was never about me, but it was all about Him.
I found Faith wasn't at all what I thought. Faith isn't about believing in something I want to happen. Having Faith isn't about healing the sick or having the money to feed our children. Faith isn't about hoping that old car will make it home one more time. People have thought having Faith was believing God would do what we wanted. It's not.
Faith is simple believing, understanding, and trusting in the Will of God. That is regardless of our own personal cost and suffering. Having Faith is staying the journey when all hope is lost. Faith is standing when all things have been stripped away. It's putting my desires aside and putting Christ first. That is Faith. When I came to terms with that and I put all my Faith in Christ I can see His desires. Why He did what He did for me. And then I see, what He did was all about me.
When I think about it I can hear him...
I am so insignificant.
Yet I died for you.
There is no reason for me to be here.
Yet I give you life .
God don't need me.
Yet I shelter you.
He don't need anything from me.
Yet I give you grace.
There is nothing I can do that could possibly impress him.
Yet I pick you up when you fall.
My life has no meaning.
Yet I offer you everlasting life.
I don't stand out.
Yet I accept you just as you are.
Opportunity don't knock on my door.
Yet I stand at the door and knock.
I struggle through the tides of a desperate life searching for my reason.
Yet I command the waves to be still.
My reason for being.
I am.
Why God put me here.
To journey with me.
In all this searching all I find are hollow empty unfilling ends.
and I will fill you with my Holy Spirit.
To love God is to fall on your knees to pray and to stand feet and praise. To take the hand of Christ and walk beside him. Not behind Him nor in front of Him but with Him side by side. To take Him in like the warmth of a fire on a cold night. To drink him in like a cold water on a parched tongue. To live a symbiont life with Him as one. To breath him in like the fragrant breeze on a spring morning. It's not a life of isolation but a life of fulfillment. Not sitting but running with a purpose in the light.
From the day you were born you were destined to die. From the day you was created God desires you to live.
You are loved.